As an era ends...

and these walls are only a memory, I feel motivated to post an old poem I just found as I was moving precious shit into boxes.

Talk About Escapism

As I become, one in nature

I feel the plants form my future

For a new outlook is all

it'll take not to fall

And I found it now

but manifest it how?

Find what you need

And for it plead

Become scared

Mission declared

Fight past feeling

Fuck the kneeling

Tell her what you feel

describe what's real

If it ain't her

Start over

But when life becomes good

You couldn't but you should

And so the mountains fail me

And something I've seen before I see

This time is perfectly planned

With coincidences that land

If life was like this forever

It may not be clearer

But my arms relax well

Even if in hell

With her body on mine

My life I'd enjoy fine

So where oh Lord

do you fit in?

Since God I know you listen

So hear me right fuckin now

I want to live out your mission

And though I'm confused

I'll look past the torment

A follower as Job

If only you'll let me be used

So know that Lord,

That I am deathly ready

To die by your sword

I can't help it however

if ruminations control me

And I'm blinded forever

I'm content to live/die like this

with one condition

that when her and I kiss

I will know you're not vexed

for if you are

I will always be surly depressed

And though I can't know you

as well as I'd like

I ask that she will get through

While humans may not understand

and though feelings of nuclear strife will follow,

You have the last command.

And though I may sin

And induce my own laceration

I believe in the Shroud of Turin

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And so just typing that out has me broken down. May of 2003 is what it was dated. It alludes to a host of multiple different ideas and actions that I knew would affect me and my mind into the distant future. Though I feel now that it was the beginning of the end of my "faith", at the time I was a slightly skeptical person but was also an obsessively devout Christian. Yet, slowly I dabbled in not living the Bible out in it's most literal sense. 2003 was a polarizing year for me where the seeds were laid to sow years of extreme despair.

Snowy Owl Invasion

Sick nature clips in this Sitka documentary against the pipeline!

...and the perspective with which the film comes from is one which I share; even aside from the environmental degradation of an oil spill, surfers will go mad not surfing and regardless what aspect of the ocean brings us joy we will be denied it. I cannot imagine a BC coast without the multitudes of magnificent and rare birds we are able to regularly enjoy during all seasons, and thus loath the future spill coming to this coast.

Naturally I will do the minuscule things I am able and willing to do, sign online petitions, vote against the Conservatives, join the odd street protest; but in the end I am sure the pipeline will be constructed and a few eye blinks later we will be profoundly angry at ourselves for not doing more to have avoided the inevitable.

Tipping Barrels from Sitka on Vimeo.

RMR: Radical Groups

Pondering thoughts on deliberating about thinking about thinking about the philosophy of thinking about thinking about thinking.

Nobody is in control

or of what they know

either how they act

or sentience thought of as fact

somehow I feel ok

if as a plant I don't even grow

seeing much pass

understanding is always subjective

If I don't get taller or greener

nobody can say an observing plant can't see.

yet we say things are said

and act different

than we think about thinking.

Interesting propaganda move, or a benevolent US military?

US navy frees Iranians held by pirates

A curious action on behalf of America. Americans saving Iranians is surely a strange headline for Iranians to read, but why would the US military help people they seemingly want to kill? As the war drum beats throughout the republican presidential candidate race the timing seems particularly odd.

One thing is for sure, Iran has a lot of oil and America wants it.

Considering the malevolent actions Americans have historically committed in the name of getting that precious precious oil, surely their campaign against Iran is driven by similar interests...

and maybe, in the name of winning Iranian hearts and minds, saving them is in the same precious oil interest.

If only North Korea had oil... maybe Americans would, from time to time, save them too.

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